following not chasing

Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.

I read this scripture this morning. It has stuck with me. As I have said, I have been at a crossroads. And, since I don’t feel there have been any further instruction, I am waiting. Waiting isn’t easy. Waiting feels like laziness. Waiting makes me itch to do something. Make things happen. Reading this scripture reminds me. I don’t need action. I need Jesus. God promises to instruct and teach. I have always thought these words meant the same thing. They don’t. When you are intructed, you are directed or commanded to do something, like as an official order. Teach is to show or explain how to do something. God promises to order my life and my steps. And not just to order them, but to show and explain to me how I should go. He will also give me advice. What a promise! When I am worried. If I keep my eyes focused on Him. If I wait for His timing, He will make clear to me those things He wants me to do. Just leaving it at this would make it seem like a transaction; I do x and y, then Jesus does Z. But that is not how life is, not how relationships are. Sometimes we do things and we never see the Z. Or we go through things and the purpose is not clear. This is when we have to trust the most. God is infinite; my thoughts, my ideas, my life here is finite. I may not understand. I may not even like it, but trust is what makes things clear. Trust says that I believe no matter what I think or feel, God knows what is best. Sometimes that is very hard. But, at the same time, it is freeing.

Psalm 33:20 We wait in hope for the Lord. He helps us. He is like a shield that keeps us safe.

About Teresa Neal

I am a Jesus girl. I have been redeemed by his blood and his love. I am also a wife, mother, daughter, aunt, sister, employee, friend, searcher, grace receiver, mercy needer and stumbler. I am fully in love with our God. I cannot do anything without him, although I try all too often. I write about the things Jesus is doing in my life, about what the Holy Spirit whispers to my soul, my struggles with depression, anxiety and OCD, and sometimes my family.
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