changing seasons

over the last several weeks, everywhere I look I am reminded of seasons changing. Okay, of course in nature, but in many things that I read.

I am definitely in one of those season changes right now and it is not easy. I am really having a difficult time knowing how to move forward. What do I do to move forward? And, what does this move look like?

Physically, I am tired. I have not shaken the fatigue from this summer. And, it seems as though I just cannot kick a cold. Or get motivated to work out.

Mentally, there is no silence. I feel as though my brain is racing. When I know there is something coming, something to change, I just want to jump into it and make the changes. But, what if you aren’t sure what is supposed to change?

How do you narrow it down? Of course I know, the real answer is to stop. When you don’t know what to do, you are supposed to stop and wait.

I have been unhappy with my job for years. I guess after this summer I keep thinking, really, is it worth staying at something you don’t like? I stay because it is a government job and I already have 21 years invested. I stay for the hope of the retirement in the future. But we aren’t guaranteed a future, so what is the answer? How do you remain prudent, but also follow your heart? Although, I am not totally sure what I would rather be doing either. ha, ha, ha.

Waiting is never easy. Waiting takes patience. Waiting on Jesus takes time to rest and to listen.

What do you do when you feel in between to seasons?

About Teresa Neal

I am a Jesus girl. I have been redeemed by his blood and his love. I am also a wife, mother, daughter, aunt, sister, employee, friend, searcher, grace receiver, mercy needer and stumbler. I am fully in love with our God. I cannot do anything without him, although I try all too often. I write about the things Jesus is doing in my life, about what the Holy Spirit whispers to my soul, my struggles with depression, anxiety and OCD, and sometimes my family.
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