no matter how much you try, you will always get tripped up.
Over the last few weeks I have been presented with several situations in which I walked away thinking, “I just don’t fit in.”
Not only did I feel this, I began to allow myself to start walking in it.
The Holy Spirit convicted me of this today. When I am thinking so much about how I don’t fit in, I am forgetting what my real purpose is. I am not meant to be comfortable at all times. Actually, the better thing for me is to be uncomfortable.
I have a tendency to hide. It is easier not to have relationships for me. I spend so much time inside my own head anyways. I can easily isolate myself from relationships past those I have with my husband and daughter.
Don’t get me wrong. There are people I really like. But because I have always been awkward in female relationships, I fear being rejected.
Satan likes me to focus on all the ways I am not like other women, instead of focusing on all the ways I am.
This year is my year of living expectant. To live in all that God has for me. I can’t do that when I am hiding.
I will allow myself to be vulnerable. Because through that vulnerability I may make some amazing friendships, but I will also learn to rely more, lean in more, to my Savior.