breaking idols

For I am yours and you are mine

I just had to add this video. I love this song. Whenever I hear it, I feel so flooded by Jesus’ love for me.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders,
Let me walk upon the waters, wherever You would call me.
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander,
And my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.

My faith can only be made stronger when I am in the presence of Jesus. When I try to ‘make my faith stronger’, I become tired and worn out. Frayed. Damaged. Hurting.

As God is trying to teach me who I am, He is showing me, teaching me, who He is. As I read my Bible, I am keeping a list of all the references to God. It is my “God is” list. I know that once I fill myself with who He is, I will then know who I am.

Yesterday in service, when the preaching was not at all on this topic, the Spirit dropped wisdom into my heart. I had to rush to get it down.

When you believe the ugly things about yourself, you are bowing down to that idol.

As I am working to tear down this idol, I find myself still bowing down to it.

In prayer counseling this week, Carissa challenged me. Take all the thoughts and messages you have about yourself in your head and write down the opposite. Say these things to yourself several times a day.

The Spirit put in my heart last week when I was struggling that I need to live like I am free even before I am free. The more I say the words over myself and read them, the more I will start to believe them. Just because it feels like an insurmountable task today, doesn’t mean it is. Feelings are indicators, not truth.

Process is difficult. But process is necessary. It is the process I go through with Jesus that will change me.

I am beautiful and wonderfully made.
I am healthy.
I am a good wife.
I am loved.
I am a good mother.
I am loved by God.
I am His Beloved.
I am smart.
I am not lazy.

Thank you Jesus for healing when I still feel wounded.

Comments

  1. LOVE! Thank you for sharing. My favorite part: “When you believe the ugly things about yourself, you are bowing down to that idol.” Such truth…hard as it is. When I find myself noodling on the ugly parts of me, it’s then that I realize I’m “all about me” and not about God. That’s the definition of idolatry. *sigh*

    Be blessed this week as you learn the truths about you. You have wonderfully made.

  2. I love this – “live like I am free even before I am free.” It’s important, but so hard, to get in front of the pain instead of living behind it.

  3. That song has been so soothing to my soul. I’d heard it a while back, but it really sunk in during my time at the IF:Gathering in Austin. Thanks for sharing the song, Teresa, and especially for sharing your words so faithfully.

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